Tuesday, September 29, 2009


I saw online how this wonderful writer posted this poem for one of her breakhearted friend...It was just too sweet..I just had to share it with you all

Why do you beat yourself up
because you had the courage to love
gave all of yourself in hopes that he was the one

Why do you beat yourself up
When it was his choice to be unfaithful
His choice to hurt you

Why do you beat yourself up
Knowing that you had done everything for him
supported him, comforted him,
loved him more than you loved yourself

Why after his lies and deceit
do you still love him? and want him to love you
Why after the repeat of hurt and trust being lost
do you think that he deserves a love as pure as yours

Why do you beat yourself up
over what you could have done better
when you know deep down there was nothing

What makes you search for answers as to why
when they will not change the past
Nor mend your broken heart

Why when a man decides to cheat do we blame ourselves?
why does it make us question every little detail about who we are
Make us think that we are not worthy of love

Why when a man cheats do we still long for him to change
Realize how wrong he was, and fall in love with us again

Why do you beat yourself up
When you deserve more
When all that you have done is loved someone completely

Give yourself time and the pain will subside
and the mourning will cease
You will see that you are still you
Still wonderful, beautiful you

Nothing has changed except your experience in love
And your determination to share love with another

As you can never truly love someone until you learn to love yourself

It's His Fault by Amanda Gray

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Happy Birthday to Me

Yesterday I was feelin like crap.... the cold bug got me bad, but im walkin and I promised myself that i would party for a week....Its my B-day. So, my bash in Tampa was excellent didnt sleep at all...today was the last day. Im so happy to just take sometime to myself. Went to church got some gospel healing and now its back to the normal life....but heres a few pics from my B-Day week partyin it up....ill be adding more later

Thursday, September 10, 2009


K...so I went to the TjsDjs Conference in Tallahassee, hung out with the tasties...cool right but I just miss my Cook...what happened to the buffet??

Heres a few pics with the girlz