Happy Holidays

Hey everyone

Its so cold outside, and yes I said it....its cold in FLORIDA

Im just chilling waiting for the sun

~RENE'

Back at it

Hey Everyone

IM BACK,

I know I have been ghosted for a few and you all have missed me....well Im telling myself that :) but anyways I had a great Thanksgiving and Halloween. Hope all of yours was excellent as well. I havent been shooting lately, Im just taking a break and enjoying life...and thats about it for new events....but I did hear a new song thats made me smile. So, here's a look at the video. Hope you like this song as well.

(DONT FORGET TO TURN OFF THE MUSIC PLAYER.....FYI its located on the left side of the page)

Thoughts

Units Of Emotion by Robert Upton

One day When I have found fulfillment
My words and deeds alone
Shall witness of my mission.
As your attention purposed
To rest upon this record,
Consider now if through these marks
You can know more of me than I of you.
Can the Love that pens these words,
Now analysed, quantified, qualified,
Ever be understood or given life again?
These heirlooms I've set forth,
Are rugged and rough hewn enough
To well express my purport
That life is more than what is seen and felt,
What is dreamed and heard.
As by the time these words are weighed by our creations
I will I hope have come to know for sure.

Another Day

Video of the Day:

(DONT FORGET TO TURN OFF THE MUSIC PLAYER.....FYI its located on the left side of the page)

RIP Bernie Mac

A self made legend and a comedian that was greatly loved and will be greatly missed....Oct 5 1957-Aug 8-2008, Rest in Peace

I like this car

I just came across this environment funny car thats just too cute. Its the new Cadillac Provoq, its a plug-in hydrogen-electric fuel-cell luxury hybrid Concept SUV...wow thats a mouth full. It looks great, maybe be 2010 when I finally rip myself away from my beloved 81 baby, maybe it will be for one of those. BUT, its going to be so hard, Im a old school lady so I love old cars but with gas prices and the way inflation is looking, one of those would be a good investment. I'll be doing a car show sometime in Sept so hopeful it will be there so I can get a up and close look at it.

My Favorite:

IMAGE OF THE DAY:

Yes, I love Storm but Misty Knight is the bomb...
I first heard about her from the "Hero for Hire" Issue 07
I cant get enough, I would love to see her in a film...she's amazing



In my opinion best actress for this role would be KD Aubert or Gabrielle Union...what do u think ?

Its not that serious

I use to not understand why people posted stuff or was talking about this hater that and this.... come on, why cant we all just love each other and be happy for those that are successful and support those being true to them self...... But now, I see you get a little older, move a little out of your norm and better yourself, then you too see why haters are alive and multiplying..... Everyone has at one point encounted those people that get an attitude because you can do things that they cant. They want to make you miserable like them and they get mad because their life is shitty. Well, the shit is old and tired.... people like that need to get a life. Stop, saying I cant do that and fucking do it. Or better, stop putting your nose in the air. Not everyone, defines success with material things and please do not think "women haters" that men defines that person either. Stop worrying why so-in-so has that man and find you a fucking one. Just because someone is telling you about something great happening in their life or maybe something that sounds to good to be true. Stop hating thinking that it somehow reflecting that they have it better then you. Note, them being happy is not about you. And for those haterz whos co workers are always late, stop crying to the boss about them and just make sure your work is done. And please dont think hater, that she/he is thinking their better then u just because they look good or do not relate to you, maybe you just dont fit into their world. Its nothing personal, got your own and then you'll understand. Men haterz stop acting like bitches and be men. Some people need to stop thinking that everyone is hating and some of you just need to quit hating....its really not that serious.

Again another day

VIDEO OF THE DAY:

Awesome Song....love the vocals

(DONT FORGET TO TURN OFF THE MUSIC PLAYER.....FYI its located on the left side of the page)

Vogue goes Black

Finally the time has come that one of the greatest fashion magazines of all time, has a issue in honor of Black Models. Yes Italy Vogue one of the mothers of fashion magazines has a Black Issue. I can breath again when I have a copy, this happens like once every hundred years right.....no like never. I am so excited!!!!! 100 plus pages of the great women of color of all time, this is not something you see everyday in the pages of Vogue. Liya Kebede, Tyra Banks, Naomi Campbell, Sessilee Lopez and the list goes on. I quite remember that yes, I cried when I saw Jennifer Hudson on the American issue of Vogue. Plus size, a woman and African-American....thats what I am talking about, overcoming all odds.

→→→Watch Clip from The Today Show-debates on the Magazine←←←

A few new photos

In one of my earlier postings, I told you about my photoshoot in L.A. with the wonderful Kai M of Vibe N Vision, will I just got a few photos back.....

Thoughts

Great Poem....I like it alot

Believe in yourself -
in the power you have
to control your own life, day by day,
Believe in the strength
that you have deep inside,
and your faith will help
show you the way.
Believe in tomorrow
and what it will bring -
let a hopeful heart carry you through,
For the things will work out
if you trust and believe
there's no limit
to what you can do.
By: Emily Matthews

What a Bad day

Have you had one of those days that you feel like everything in your life is just going so wrong. Today was like that, I was miserable before I got out of bed. I cried almost all night... i give up on sleeping so i got up to watch a movie i just brought called Alfie....wow, it was no help i cried through the whole movie too( its not a good thing to watch if your single), quite depressing.....so anyways got to my other job and my boss was treating me like...."**#x on my *x*##*", not going there, but u get the picture....well anyways i was just about to cry my eyes out in front of the whole office, when this amazing song came on the radio....im flying right now, music is a gift from God, amazing song by Michelle Williams and she looks just like Whitney Houston in this music video..cheered me right up....so if your having a bad day listen to this song maybe it'll help you too

Video of the Day:

(DONT FORGET TO TURN OFF THE MUSIC PLAYER.....FYI its located on the left side of the page)

Out with the girls

Finally, I went out everyday this week and had a blast....

My Favorite

Congrats goes to this lucky couple....i just love seeing a good black man with a good black woman, priceless

Ruben Studdan & Surata McCants Studdan

NEW PHOTOSHOOT

Just got back for California, L.A. AND......
Beautiful city + beautiful people = I am so in love.
I had a blast working with the one and only; Kai Morrison of Vibe N Vision and also MUA Shannon, lovely woman and a joy to work with.
I will be posting some of the looks from the shoot soon.
So, check back in a week for a update

Also, I went to some of the night life spots, ate at some really great Jamacian spots, checked out Hollywood Blvd that had a few tour sights like the famous hollywood stars and hung out with my wonderful Aunt; HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE :) and....ooo did i say I had a blast.

NEXT YEAR, L.A. thats the place to be

One of the photos from the shoot

Another Day

Video of the Day :

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Memorial Day

You want to know what "sucked big time" means its called MY MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND

NO Fire works
NO BBQ
NO hot new swimsuit
NO hot guys
NO Beach
NO Parties
NO Modeling gigs
NO Friends and Family


IM GETTING MAD NOW..so IM OUT

My heart

I have always been a sucker for a old fashion romance...so yes, Im still in love with Disney and I cant wait for The Frog Princess to come out in 2009. My favorite Disney movie is Beauty and the beast. So, when I heard that Toni Braxton was going to be Belle on Broadway, I wanted to go so bad. But unfortunately, NY was out of the question at the time. I still to this day wish that I was able to see just one show. So, this clip was so special to me when I saw it. I have always loved Toni Braxton and Im so happy to see her playing this role. It has totally been a inspiration to me.

Video of the day:
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thoughts

Last night, I was surfing the web and these poems really touched me,I think that every woman has at some point in their life felt like this, I really enjoyed reading them. ...what do you think about them?

After a While - by Veronica Shoffstall

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

Forbidden by Megan Hatridge

Ever since that day
I've hid my heart away
Many have tried but fail to find
The gate is closed I've made up my mind
I can't be the girl I used to be
Cause look what love has done to me
I let my guard down and gave it all to you
Never realizing you would be untrue
It's been so long and still I stand
But still I long for the touch of your hand
I'll be strong and keep it all inside
Even if it's just foolish pride
They say it is better to have loved and lost
And I've tried that and paid the cost
So if I have to feel this pain
Just to find a love again
I think I'll let it pass me by
I'll spare the heartache and refuse to try

MY FAVORITE

IMAGE OF THE DAY:

STORM AND BLACK PANTHER...the perfect couple


The Flu bug finally got me, I have been coughing up a lung for hours...i know that my boss would have send me home by now if it wasnt for the other half of the office coughing up stuff too. BUT, Im still down to 145 which is great :)

Hello, Hello

Wow....I cant believe its May. I have been just taking a day at a time. Im so happy that things have been calm and slow. I have reached my goal of 145....so im clapping for myself, a few more weeks and my abs will be back. As for modeling and acting I havent much to repost about...I just been sitting home relaxing and working out. I did however attend the TJDJs conference this April, so here's a few pictures with me and some of the other promo ladies.

Just another day

Video of the day:
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This much to Do

This March has been pretty boring, nothing interesting to say....

just me getting back into shape...

started at 165 at the being of this month, now down to 155...

next month down to 145.... thats my goal,

OOh, No modeling assignments just working on getting healthy

and in shape

Thoughts

This Poem is deep

Tell me that you love me,

For I cannot see,

I don't have the pleasure of seeing what you see,

The storm has come, my depression hits,

The dark clouds is my face,

Which covers my happiness every bit,

The rain are my tears,

That tells a story about my fears,

Races down my cheeks, year after year,

The muddy ground is my lips,

Complicated, unstable, and fragile,

How did you know,

hidden, existed was a smile,

The wind are my voices in my head that prolong,

Whispers from my thoughts... I am nothing,

A reminder I'm all alone,

The thunder and lightening,

Are my discourage and disappointments,

My brain is scattered, lost, this is senseless,

Oh, but you are different, for it is not what you see,

You see a beautiful young girl, could it possibly be,

Tell me that you love me,

I want to see what you see.

By Laria S. Bone

The end of Black History month

NOoooo..... Feb is over so, I have to cry one time....cause this month makes me feel so proud to be black. I have to rep one black person in american history that i greatly look up too...Her life is just amazing...

Miss Ruby Dee Williams



Short bio:
(Oct 27, 1924-Present)
Married Ossie Davis
Lives in New York
Mother of three, one is a blues singer
Civil Rights Activist and Actress
Featured in over 50 films

Too Funny

My day started off pretty bad, I was running late to my job,
(the other one that pays the rent), not too glamour....i was bored and really to go home by noon but who isnt...so like always my co workers laughed at my knee highs being for the 60s but i dont care my feet were warm. Besides, some flu bug is going around so I dont want to use my sick days on a common cold when I could get the flu the next day and be out for the week....Im saving those extra days for my spring vacation too..... I need one bad (Im stressed) but whats new....Im still deciding where to go for vacation but thats another story.....so, anyways, I was surfing the net about to fall out of my so not comfortable office chair then I came across this funny video, I first saw it sometime last year when the whole R Kelly trial was big in the news (which I still havent seen the big nasty movie everyone was talking about) and what a song.....LOL



Dave Chapelle - (I Wanna) Pee On You - MyVideo

Setting Goals

Ok, Im through with my hiding point away from the parties and the people driving me crazy, Im jumping back on the wagon by the end of the month. maybe its cause im single again...and no i havent been singing along with Trina cause it was never perfect but anyways, i went to the scale the other night and I couldnt believe i was at 150 (ok maybe 155), im not hugh by a long shot but for modeling....totally not good...its time for me to start back on the exercise and get a grip on this seriously.....so anyways i had a shoot this Feb, which was a ball of fun with Nureign, trying something different with a ring light...cool effect. This is how im looking now but in two month I plan on taking a few pictures in the same dress for fun to see the results after the weight loss. Here's a pic from it...

Love is in the air

Happy Valentines Day.....mines was crappy but hope yours was great

I was just standing there, feeling depressed (yes, I said it) that another V-Day I was working long hours and going to go home and pop in a good black and white movie to make me feel better. Then, this song came on my net radio as I was working and It was like her words were speaking to my soul, its so wield that I was always that one out of my close friends that just wanted to have a family and find my soulmate....and I turned out to start modeling, going to college and who knows what God will bring me the next days cause its not like i asked for the world but things just follow me, Im so blessed and grateful to God and I know when the time comes God will place that soulmate in my life, cause I have faith in him....this song says what I couldnt, the way I was feeling in that moment

....maybe next year...ill actually have a happier song to sing

Do I Really look like her

I have always thought that I looked more like Diana Ross maybe because she's the bomb but my mom was a total look alike...

....just look at her pictures amazing....totally the bomb

... lately some people are saying that i have the look of Betty boo too, Im not too sure, I think its just her big eyes

Found this website that matches you to celebrities.....Do U think I look like her?

Missed the Grammy Awards

I cant believe I missed the Grammy Awards this year (so I watched it online)....and then I got to work and it seemed like everyone was looking at me crazy for asking if they watched it. I guess I should have known better to ask after they seemed bored by the premiere of fav of love 3....anyone that thinks that show is boring must think the Grammy Awards is 10 times more boringer....( ok so what, i know that word isn't in the dictionary) well fav’s show is off the chain aka "crazy" that’s why i cant watch it but my friends are always updating me on the new episodes......i cant get away from hearing about it and then i saw pictures online of some of the new females, one of them I know from around town, she went to FAMU, thats a University in Florida...what a small world. Anyways, back to the Grammy Awards......I gots to say this about the Grammy Awards

LOVED:

~performance of Beyonce and Tina Turner
~Amy Winehouse...so amazing
~Alica Keys blue/green dress winning the Best R&B Performance award...stunning
~Josh Groban and Andrea Bocelli performance...love these guys
~Cher...still beautiful....that woman never ages
~Aretha Franklin and BeBe Winans performance


HATED:

~Alicia Keys singing with some old guy....his voice was amazing without her added voice
~Rihanna’s brown outfit..... ???
~Ashanti... I wish she just stayed home being bananas...sorry
~looking at Kayne West under different colored lights and those glasses....wow

WORST vs BEST:


Shes so pretty...I dont understand why this dress but I Love this dress on Carrie

My Fav:

He is so hot in red

That Moment:

This is History

Cant forget your roots

Everyone knows its Black History Month but this is the first year that I havent been able to take part in my hometown activities. Its so sad, i cant forget my roots....im not only Native American but also African-American...All children should know about the important changes that Blacks have done for the American people. Here is a list of some excellent shows that PBS provides in honor of Black History Month...LIST OF PBS BLACK HISTORY PROGRAMS


When I look at programs like these it reminds me how much my family have been through to see me doing something with my life....Heres a clip for the special AFRICAN AMERICAN LIVES 2 aired Feb 6, if u missed it, u can catch it again on the 13th, this special was NOT a bore,wish i could have been one of the people in this show finding out about my ancestors, I really enjoyed watching it....im going to make sure to tape it on the 13th....Heres the clip

My Favorite

IMAGES OF THE DAY:

The Way I THINK

ONE OF MY FAVORITE MESSAGES FOR MODELS

The way I think.....

1) Understanding that your fans make you not, the other way around, bad attitudes aren’t pretty

2) You will never always be the baddest b****, in every event but, understand as long as you worry about SELF it doesn’t even matter

3) Looking good is a most, but understand that if your naturally cute you don’t have to wear tons of makeup, heels and hair to you’re a** 24/7, cause your beauty will always shine though no matter what u wear.

4) Just because you get paid for wearing some outfits that others will blink twice, understand that it doesn’t mean that defines who you are

5) Have an objective, goals and standards, Stand for something. Have your do's and don't, and let those that want to do it, do it.

6) Sometimes it’s lonely at the top, so bring your friends along for a midnight snack

7) Don’t let the industry make you, be yourself

8) BUT, most important, always thank God for his blessings and BRUSH THEM HATERS OFF


do u agree,anything missing, any comments??

-Hey, I was bored, what can I say--

Fashion Week

I was just sitting at work doing nothing today....I have everything done for the week. So, I took a minute to look through New York's Fashion Week photos on break and I came across a few I really liked........

Tokyo: Designers
Yuma-Koshino
Junya-Tashiro